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Something new [Kainos]…
May 9, 2007, 6:17 pm
Filed under: Church, Emerging, Kainos, Life in general, Prayer, Relationships, Worship

So after a long blog hiatus, I’ve some some stuff to share…

I’ve officially changed my position at RHCCC from part-time Worship Director to Full-Time Summer Intern (College/Worship).  I’ve taken up the task to help guide and direct the college/young adult group at Richmond Hill Chinese Community Church.

As the fellowship formerly known as “Kainos Fellowship”, I’ve changed the name slightly to its current identity, the”Kainos Gathering”.  The meaning of “Kainos” (Greek word) means “New” and it is quite fitting that this ministry is restarting NEW at this church.  I’ve tried to give the group a little facelift cosmetically with the help of the WONDERFUL Deborah Lau 😉  She helped design a pretty spiffy logo and schedule layout for the group!

Anyways, it is my sincere hope that this group may very well know the faith, hope and love that we share in Jesus.  I also hope this summer can help them be bold enough to make friends with people who aren’t christian and yet still grow in their faith (and hopefully sharing it).  Simple enough, but to help stimulate this growing process, we’ll be praying a lot and waiting on the Spirit to move us 😉


Here’s another [Kainos] new thing…

I just talked to my good friend Vince Fung.  He’s someone who’s worked hard for his degree, who has tried hard to follow God, yet is still going through some of the hardest times in life.   THE GRADUATED.

My prayer for Him, and for my other friends in similar situations (and boy do I have many) is that God can somehow turn their bitterness, their confusion and their S.A.D. stories… into something more beautiful than they could imagine.  Nothing ever turns out all dandy and “happily ever after…” as we see it.  I just know that God is Jehovah-Jireh, the great provider.  I believe THAT over all the “reality” that people say is more realistic than Christian “tunnelvision”.  I hope none of them can ever say aloud that the only way they could “succeed” was through their own means.  I just pray so earnestly that God will do… something?…

Lord God, change their hearts, transform their minds, not so other people (like me) can just fix their solutions with words, but so that they may know why you made them in this life…

In Jesus name, Amen.


Mohler… molamolamola!
November 4, 2006, 5:55 pm
Filed under: Church, Culture, Missions, Prayer


For some of you who didn’t know, I spent last year in Louisville Kentucky at Southern Baptist Theological Seminary, and the president there who has been reforming for the couple of years has been R. Albert Mohler.  As an overt Reformed Evangelical and uber conservative, I grew from knowing very little about him to realizing his passion to proclaim Christ in the Bible as the Savior and Lord of our lives, and for that I am truly grateful.  While I am no longer at SBTS, I will miss his sermons which were always so full of truth and boldness of the Gospel and he also modeled the Love of God through Grace and prayer for others really well at the same time.

Honestly, I didn’t take well the sometimes “agressive” conservative resurgence that was happening at SBTS, but I learnt so much there and I still appreciated all that they taught me in keeping true to the word of God and to keep learning from the Christian forefathers of the past.

Anyways, I wrote this  blog because I still get Mohler’s blogs through my SBTS email account (which is still active, haha) and he blogged about the subject of Homosexuality in an interview with a guy named Andrew Sullivan (some of you may know, most will not, hehe).  I know the blog is LONG but seriously, if anything read the end of it.  I thought at the end of his blog, he really showed the Christ-loving compassion towards someone who is openly homosexual, and while definitely not relenting from his stance, he showed the humility and love that I think many people who call themselves “conservatives” should have for the people on earth.

Here’s the link:  Gay Culture and the Riddle of Andrew Sullivan

I pray that God’s people would have love and compassion for ALL people on the earth, sharing the gospel message not just through their words but in their actions and deeds.

Laying in my bed thinking…
August 28, 2006, 6:44 pm
Filed under: Church, Life in general, Prayer, Worship

I was laying in my bed thinking last night (saturday, after slim’s wedding) and I was praying for God to change my thinking and give me some peace in worshipping Him the next day at church. I was not disappointed.

I’ve been harboring some criticisms in my head and it’s been difficult for a while, but I think I’m slowly getting past that… I haven’t helped “counsel” someone in such a long time and when I finally did, it felt like I was doing what I was “supposed” to be doing. Helping and loving the people around me! Leading worship at Slim’s wedding was also something I’ve missed in a long time… leading worship, using music to give praise to God for the gift of holy matrimony… I miss using my gifts in music… I really do.

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Why I am not blogging a lot right now
July 31, 2006, 8:44 pm
Filed under: Church, Life in general, Prayer, Relationships

So this post isn’t to inform everyone that I am not blogging anymore, but as of late I have been in that “tentative” blog mindset… I guess because a lot of my life is revolving around whether or not I will be working for a certain church soon or not.

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So Insensitive…
May 28, 2006, 4:32 am
Filed under: Life in general, Prayer, Relationships, Worship

I've realized, I've just been highly insensitive, unsenstive, and etc as of late…  How does God show me the error of my ways?  He brings back the past to show me what I need learn to deal with…  it seems the past always has a way of catching up.

"Therefore, my beloved, as you have always obeyed, so now, not only as in my presence but much more in my absence, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling, for it is God who works in you, both to will and to work for His good pleasure.

Do all things without grumbling or questioning, that you may be blameless and innocent, children of God without blemish in the midst of a crooked and twisted generation, among whom you shine as lights in the world, holding fast to the word of life, so that in the day of Christ I may be proud that I did not run in vain or labor in vain."

– Philippians 2:12-17

I'm not doing things selflessly right now…  I'm just questioning things…  In my internship search, in my relationship with mon, in whatever…  I'm just questioning (not in a good way, in a selfish way). 

Today's worship during Toby Tam's wedding (lol) really showed me the err of my ways.  I miss worshiping God and lifting of Jesus with all my heart…  now I hope that it will accompany my body and strength and mind as well…  I need to hold fast to the word of God which is my life.

Like on my msn name as of recent says, "Worshipful heart requires self-control"…  I pray the HS works His good fruit of self-control in me… 

Oh God, may Your grace truly abide in me…

What to do about families?
May 22, 2006, 5:45 pm
Filed under: Life in general, Prayer, Relationships

Recently some close people in my life have expressed that they are having internal family issues.  It's been tough to hear of dreaded family issues that tear people apart and directly affect the people I know…  It's like a helpless feeling y'know?  Like you want to do something but you can't?  You want to comfort your friends, but they sometimes don't need solutions but just support?

Sensitivity and grieving have never been a strong suit of mine…  When I think about serving my brothers and sisters I always feel there needs to be a "DOING" factor, some kind of action involved on my part to make the situation better…  but that only gets you so far.

Prayer.  Praying has always been something that has been taught in the church.  Pray for your struggles, pray for someone else's struggle, pray for blessing, pray for…  But really, how POWERFUL has prayer been lately?  Has God been answering your prayers immediately?  Something interesting I've been thinking about is if prayers is not so much a means to get what YOU want versus returning back to close personal relationship with the Lord Most High…

Dear God,

Please keep the families of my friends in your hands.  You are the God who is unchanging and always in control.  We are sinful people who do sinful things and affect others with that sin, but please let your justice flow, your grace abound and your mercy endure forever in our lives.  Please comfort the broken, love the hurting and help my will be changed and aligned to Your will Father God.

In Jesus name I pray for all of us,