Growth: Uncertain belief still counts as knowledge…

Laying in my bed thinking…
August 28, 2006, 6:44 pm
Filed under: Church, Life in general, Prayer, Worship

I was laying in my bed thinking last night (saturday, after slim’s wedding) and I was praying for God to change my thinking and give me some peace in worshipping Him the next day at church. I was not disappointed.

I’ve been harboring some criticisms in my head and it’s been difficult for a while, but I think I’m slowly getting past that… I haven’t helped “counsel” someone in such a long time and when I finally did, it felt like I was doing what I was “supposed” to be doing. Helping and loving the people around me! Leading worship at Slim’s wedding was also something I’ve missed in a long time… leading worship, using music to give praise to God for the gift of holy matrimony… I miss using my gifts in music… I really do.

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Mosquito Bites
August 16, 2006, 3:39 pm
Filed under: Life in general


I never thought I would blog about this but I currently have 6 mosquito bites and I’m just pissed that I can’t figure out how I got bitten!!! ESPECIALLY 6 bites!!! I even got a bit on the part of your foot that connects your ankle to your foot so any time I move it ITCHES LIKE MAD!

Of course having these bites has made me thinking a bit more theologically about THE POINT of mosquito bites (lol). Just a random thought but there’s no real point for us humans to get some slightly poisonous bites that don’t threaten us mortally but irritate our skin. The mosquitoes get our blood and they keep surviving, but how the HECK does it benefit us?

I realized (in the shower mind you, where I think the clearest) that God made mosquito bites to “wake us up to the real world”. To show us, we are not in control of everything, you can try to control everything (even not getting bites), but it’s to show us that we are not in control of it all. God is God, God made mosquitoes, mosquitoes bite me, I scratch at my bites and realize that I am truly alive…

The 9-5 job isn’t our sole source of reality… our lives don’t revolve around solely around our actions… God is there, not some sort of chaos…

hehe, so this pointless blog, is that in my EXTRA-BIBLICAL reasoning is that God made mosquitoes to make sure I remember He is in control, even at this time in my life I’ve felt I was in control…

When “Community Talk” becomes (op)(de)pressive?
August 13, 2006, 1:02 pm
Filed under: Church, Life in general, Relationships

I recently found out one of my friends has just had enough of the idea of “community”.  I guess maybe not SO much community but the IDEA of community.  That if one has to be responsible of another person or responsible for a group of people, then it’s too tough.

This is probably a reminder for me that Jesus’ command to us:  Love God, love your neighbor as yourself… isn’t a cakewalk.  Not by a longshot.

Actually, I’ve been finding it tough to take when one of your good friends says a statement like “I just don’t care for these people anymore…”  I guess some people can say this person just doesn’t fully understand Jesus’ call in our lives…  who does fully understand it all?

Sometimes I think people believe that loving God supercedes loving your neighbor as yourself but HECK NO!  It’s ENTIRELY linked together!  Jesus said “I tell you the truth, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for me.” (Matt 25:45)  Granted, this passage was talking about the weak or the broken or the needy… but if you can’t even love your friends?  man…  it’s a crying shame…

So what happens if people “who should KNOW BETTER” are just sitting on their butts, not doing anything, or perhaps criticizing like snakes and just causing problems?  YOU CHASTISE THEM!  You REBUKE them in Jesus’ NAME! 

It’s a SERIOUSLY problem in our society nowadays when we feel we can outthink, outlogic, say it all in such a convincing manner to our bros or sis in Christ when all that’s needed is to speak with the ONLY logic that matters.  Jesus’ words.  Of course be gentle and speak in humility, but SPEAK nonetheless!

I plead for those who have given up or are starting to give up…

Don’t give up.  For the sake of Jesus, for the sake of His death and resurrection for us on the cross.  For the sake of the Kingdom of God which is here but not yet complete.  I urge you to keep living the life Jesus has called us to live…

me? Calvinist?
August 5, 2006, 1:49 pm
Filed under: Emerging, Life in general

Uncle Simon linked a quiz on his site that asked “which theologian are you?”, Here are my results:

You scored as John Calvin. Much of what is now called Calvinism had more to do with his followers than Calvin himself, and so you may or may not be committed to TULIP, though God’s sovereignty is all important.

John Calvin
Jonathan Edwards
Karl Barth
Martin Luther
Friedrich Schleiermacher
Charles Finney
Paul Tillich

Which theologian are you?
created with

Although I don’t think I’m quite a “Calvinist” in adhering to TULIP, I do agree, God’s sovereignty is important to me…  I think SBTS and Driscoll has rubbed off a lot on me… Still I wish I was more like Luther…  *sigh*


Tim Hughes: Worship Central
August 5, 2006, 1:38 pm
Filed under: Worship


Tim Hughes is at it again!  He has moved on from his website to WorshipCentral @ Holy Brompton Church in England (Under Nicky Gumbel, the guy behind all those alpha course dealies).  He even has his own blog now right here.

I guess even with all the change happening in my life, growing in understanding, and dealing with challenges as they come… I’ve always found my greatest connection to God in worshipping Him in the vehicle He has given to us…. Music.  Tim Hughes and the music he has written has always edified me in that area and for that I am greatful.  I am hopeful that this new site actually hones and develops new worship leaders to lead people in awesome praise to God.  I’ll leave y’all with this quote I found on the site that has said a lot of what I feel about worship bands and music:

“I think it’s important to play well and be as good as you can musically, which involves practice.  We need to aim for excellence, but the issue isn’t how good things are musically, the issue is who it’s all for.  Worship isn’t a performance and worship leaders and musicians shouldn’t be thinking about performing to congregations, as worship is for God alone.  It means that the heart attitudes are essential for all involved.  There is nothing wrong with musical excellence – in fact I think it should be striven for, but where it’s wrong is when that gets in the place of leading God’s people and it becomes a distraction.  And that is heart attitude thing.  If we’re honest that can be hard for musicians, as particularly in rock music normally you want to play well in order to impress people.  However in worship you want to play well, so you can be more invisible to enhance people’s connectedness with God.”

– Mike Pilavachi – The Invisible Band

Camerafone Captions
August 3, 2006, 12:51 am
Filed under: Life in general

This is a new series of blogs where I will be posting up some pictures from my phone camera and put a small caption under it.  Here’s the first set, Enjoy!


My first time getting acupuncture for a softball injury


A crazy big old school catholic church in Montreal


Connie Yuen has changed jobs and is now selling houses in downtown Toronto…  LOL

(The Connie Clone)