Growth: Uncertain belief still counts as knowledge…

I think after tonight I will start a small series (which could turn into a bigger one…) called “Repenting of…”.

Taking after Tim Keller’s article called “Life is Repentance” I think I need to do a bit of blog repentance.

In this blog I think I need to take some time to repent of some of my current faux-pas’.  Something that hit me hard was just in talking with my uncle tonight.  I think my tone has grown pretty arrogant at times.  My “confidence” that I exhibit at times becomes a sign of arrogance to people and I think after tonight I really do have to repent of that.  I’m a kind of person who needs to be SURE, wants to SOUND sure and wants to LEAD sure.  I’m starting to realize I need to pay attention to my own advice in terms of putting myself in other people’s shoes and hearing how I speak.

Going into ministry has put me in a lot of ackward situations that I’m still trying to deal with.  I’ve been laughed at, attacked, criticized, chastised and sometimes even simply shot down just because I’m leading a ministry at a large church.  I think it’s been quite the learning experience up til now, and I don’t think it’s as much an issue of humility or attitude re-adjustment…  but I think more of one to listen longer and respond slower.

I think I’m slowly realizing, even with my “take action” approach, the only way the action God wants to come out, will only happen if I repent of my sins/faults and let God mold me and work in my inabilities…

Lord I repent of these things and ask for your living water to restore my soul.